I’m asking you to look at me.
Can you see through the veil?
Through the fog that tries to hide the scars.
Everything that is truly me is hidden within the lies I tell myself and others.
Every word I have left unspoken to Her and so many others.
Everything that lies hidden within is revealed to me by reading the pages I have written.
I have fallen on my knees again and again, but every time I struggled up.
But this war within myself will not end by being the prophet like lyrical smart-ass.
I shared my pain with the world and the world struck at me.
I try to keep calm but the anger finds it way out.
I fight those who I should love.
I use my energy on the things that screw me up.
All this battle, all this war, slaughter, everything hurts.
I hate myself for being a monster I created.
I want to be normal, I want to breathe.
Relax for once but never ever can I stop.
Not even a single second will I rest until I am close to Her.
The scar that will never heal.
I Don’t want to be like this, I have been on this road to long.
For to long I traveled down the path of self destruction.
All this time I was wrong.
Never could I see the beauty that lies within my life.
I neglected her for too long.
Pushed her down to much.
As I locked her out of the heart I meant to give to her.
We will grow stronger in time.
But first I must win another battle.
Then another war.
No, first I must learn to live my life